Drowning

Drowning

Drowning


Let your Soul
drown in God’s Ocean.

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This is just a play on the idea of “letting go”. A drowning man does not control the waves, the waves control the drowning man.
In the same way, let your Soul “drown” in God and stop trying to control the waves of God’s ocean 🙂

Peaceful

Exclusion

Exclusion


How can we expect peace in the world,
when we have yet to find peace within?

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This image made me think of inclusion and exclusion. Some circles are inside the border and some are outside the border. My first thoughts when I saw this centered on religion- how it can be both inclusive and so very exclusive.

Those within the border and those outside of the border forever separated.

But, I also began to think of internal peace. I realized that the sense of peace that so many seek is thought to occur through the control and manipulation of others- as if the external world must be in a certain format before one can know peace.

This is completely false. Nothing outside of us will ever give us a sense of peace, if we are incapable of knowing peace within ourselves.

No thing can bring you peace. Peace begins from within.

Entangled

Web

Web


Born, we enter, the
Infinite Web of Creation

Held, we are, by the Unseen
strands making  Connections

Blind, we move, in
self-proclaimed “freedom”

Entangled, we become,
in the Unity of the eternal filaments.

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This is just a play on the idea of the Universal One.

I liked the idea of how our lack of “seeing” of the strands that connect us all as One changes what could be supportive connections between us into entanglements.

We move without awareness of those connections and thus become entangled in the mess.

A Rainbow of Options

Rainbow of Options

Rainbow of Options


God gave You a rainbow of options
to use-

Why do you insist on removing
some of the colors?

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I had an interesting talk with a therapist the other day. She was talking about anger and how so many people think anger is a “bad” response and should be curtailed, at the least, and removed altogether, for the best.

I have never understood this hierarchy of thinking.

It reminds me of the chakras, and believing that you progress upwards through the chakras. That is not true.

All chakras must be open and balanced for an individual to be healthy. It does no good to have widely open sixth and seventh chakras, while the first two are so dysfuctional that the person can barely function in the real world.

I see a similar partitioning of associations when I teach my pathophysiology course. A physician friend and I were talking the other day about how patients may delay seeking help for gastrointestinal issues because of embarrassment and the “low” function we associate with this system.

A functioning GI tract is just as important to any one’s overall health as any other tissue.

When we label things as “bad”, we set ourselves up for ineffective understanding and actions.

This is true for anger. Anger is associated with boundaries. In that way, it is more of a first chakra issue. That does not make it any less valuable.

Anger is the red of the rainbow of options. Would you sometimes prefer to use the green of the heart and seek understanding? Sure.

How about the blue of the throat and communicate and compromise your way to resolution with the other person? That would be great.

Or what if you could just live in the sparkly purple of spirituality and rise above everything that has ever pissed you off? Even better!

But, this is what needs to be remembered- we were given a rainbow of options for a reason.

By fighting for our space, anger helps the other colors of the rainbow emerge.

Regrets

Dark Side

Dark Side

You are not the Sun,
with endless light
to see infinity

You are the Moon,
with the dark side of
unknowing poking at you.

I have been thinking about regrets lately and how we assume we know what the outcome would have been had we chosen another path or action.

In this way, we believe we are the Sun (or God) with all-knowing vision.

When we regret an action, we believe we know better how the outcome would have manifested, had we chosen differently. But who is to know this?

We are not God nor are we the Sun with the light to see infinity.

We are the Moon, with the dark side of un-knowingness as part of our Being.

We never know how an untaken path may have manifested.

We may BELIEVE it would have turned out better or for the best and regret not taking it.

But the regret only arises because we have blanketed unknowing with a belief in something otherwise- our fantasy of the outcome.

The Power of Reflection

Reflection

Reflection


We must truly see our selves
in order to be our true selves.

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As many of my images do, this began as a quick set of lines and then I saw the shape emerge.

At first, I was disturbed by this image.  I felt it was almost aggressive.

Then, I remembered hands symbolically represent our ability to be powerful and enact our agenda in the world.

There is positive energy in the physically large hand of the image, asking the figure to see its own reflection.

We can not enact our power in the world when we can not see ourselves in the world.

 

Shadow

Shadow Life

Shadow Life

Don’t let your Shadow grow a life of its Own.

—-
In Jungian thought, we each have a shadow aspect to our Being. In the simplest terms, our shadow is that potion of our Being outside of our conscious awareness.

In this image I am trying to point out that the Shadow becomes problematic when it begins to grow and predominate one’s life.

When this happens, we can truly lose sight of ourselves, as our unconscious, lack of awareness, begins to run our lives.

Let’s not Confuse Survival with Resilience

Resilience

Resilience

Sometimes I think we confuse “resilient” and “survival” at times.

The use of “resilient” may be especially applied when speaking about children (and others) in difficult situations.

I have often heard stated, “Well, you know, children are resilient.”

I have also heard “resilience” applied to abuse survivors, individuals who survive natural disasters, and so on.

I am not taking anything away from these individuals, or the positive sentiments implied by the use of the word “resilient”.

However, one definitions I found for “resilience” captured my concern about usage of this word.

It defined resilience as the “capability of a strained body to recover its size and shape after deformation…”

See, this is what I think we miss when we use the word “resilience”. To be truly resilient, based on the above definition, the body (or Being) RECOVERS its size and shape.

I have not found this to be true in those I witness suffering abuse or other traumas.

Certainly, individuals are capable of moving through these experiences.

However, the original state of the person is NOT RECOVERED, thus based on the definition I provided above, “resilience” can not be applied to describe these individuals.

The body (or Being) of the person does not return to its size and shape- it has been forever modified by the experience.

So, when I hear people speak about children suffering or others who are supposedly “resilient”, I often transpose their sentiments in my mind and use the word “surviving” in place of “resilient”.

The term “surviving’ conjures up an entire different emotional sense and awareness.

We can no longer absolve ourselves of our collective responsibility for those suffering, by saying “Well, they are resilient” (meaning: We needn’t worry too much. Those who we label as “resilient” will return to their original size and shape, as good as new, once this is all over.)

We should be saying instead, “Well, they are surviving”.

And with the word “surviving” we begin to capture the struggles, and perhaps, more importantly, give up the ideas that all will be “fine”, because “resilient” objects, no matter what they suffer, are expected to return to their original size and shape.

Vocabulary

Without awareness, nothing will change.

In my own life, I find vocabulary is the first step to awareness. When we are given (or produce) the “correct” vocabulary for our situation, it is as if a key fits into the locks and things begin to shift.

This happened for me the other day in therapy. We had been talking about my “hectic” schedule. And my therapist stated, “You have always had to be ‘more than’ enough, in order to see yourself as acceptable.”

I had always thought of myself as “not enough” but her changing of the phrase enabled me to grasp the underlying energy of what I attempt to do.

If 30 hours is a normal teaching load, then I teach 36 hours and take on 8- 12 in the summer. If the deadline for a consulting project is Oct. 18, I will get it done by Oct. 1.

Who cares if we just moved? I will host a sleepover for one stepkid, a birthday party and slumber part for the other, go to two concerts (we had the tickets), attend back to school nights, stay for every football practice, handle a college fair and so on and on.

The compulsion lay in the idea that if I was not doing the maximal, I was not acceptable. “More than” was the only way I understood how to “be”- be seen, be loved, be noted, be o.k.

It was also the only way, I could see to not be attacked. If I am doing “more than” than certainly no one could criticize me for being “less than”.

My therapist continued with “this is a learned behavior”.

It is not right or wrong. It is simply learned.

If I learned it, I can “unlearn” it. But, to do so, requires awareness (and vocabulary) on my part.

Now, when I envision situations, I ask myself, “Is this ‘more than’?”

I have to use this phrase, as asking myself “is this too much?” has absolutely no resonance for me. I have NO idea what “too much” is.

“More than” gives me a comparison from which to work.

The answers are always present. Sometimes we just need the right vocabulary 🙂