Preventing “Thought Bulimia”

Toxins exist all around us. Sometimes we willing ingest and engage with toxins, other times they are thrust upon us.

Although there are many things that occur within the context of bulimia, I believe that the need to purge is related, to a point, to the awareness that one has ingested a great deal of toxins (large amounts of unhealthy foods) and is, thus, then motivated to remove these toxic substances from the body in seeking a state of re-balance and renewal.

This, of course, is a very limited account of this disease. Lately, though, I have been thinking of this idea in relation to thoughts that I create.

I am honest when I state that I have a number of toxic thoughts each day. Ideas such as “I hate myself” will run through my mind; I will build cases against others in my mind; I will assess the motivations of others in a negative light and so on.

And I have realized how many toxins I am creating in my body by these thoughts. The body does not forget and the body is quite literal in some of its workings. If you think negative thoughts, the body responds accordingly. Stress and tension is created as the body tries to defend itself.

I have also noticed when I have harmed myself by creating this toxic environment within, then like someone suffering from bulimia, I will try to rid myself of these toxins. I will overcompensate with feelings of guilt, I will judge myself harshly and restrict myself, stating “Never again will I think such things”, I will try to make it up to the other person. I will go running or do yoga in an attempt for a sense of re-balance and renewal.

Similar to the over-consumption, purge cycle of someone with bulimia, I suffer the double- whammy: thinking harmful thoughts and then trying to compensate for these thoughts.

The cycle must be broken. My judgments keep me trapped in the cycle, when the best course is simply to observe the thoughts and let me them go, acknowledging they have no true power over me.

If you are like me and find yourself sometimes caught in negative thought cycles, I offer the following:

I let this thought go, releasing its hold upon me and anyone it may incur. This thought has no power over me or anyone else as it bears no reflection of my true self.

The Only Way to Repair the Past

Past

Past

The only way to repair the past is to become more conscious and aware in the present moment.

By “repair the past”, I do not mean to completely change or fix what was done to you or what you have done to others in times that are no longer with us. The turning back of time to right some wrong is impossible. What can be done, however, is to create a context and awareness within the present moment that the past is literally transformed within our own sense of Being.

As we come to a greater understanding of ourselves and raise our consciousness (which can only happen in the present moment) we shed new light on the past and the transgressions of the past.

With new found consciousness, we are blessed with fresh understanding and a way to transform what happened so long ago.

I see people do this day after day on their blogs. I can literally see their consciousness holding up the past and seeing it in a new light and angle. This is the miracle, the grace of being able to change our lives. We are not limited by the physicality of time and the definition of “the past” when within us lies the potential to see everything anew.

My Failure in Understanding “This Too Shall Pass”- One of My Favorite Sayings

Holding

Holding

If I want to move on in life, I must refrain to holding everything so tightly to me. I am a hoarder of the emotional, stress, wounding type.

Forty-eight hours after a stressful event, I may well find myself still clinging to the emotional energy of betrayal, anger, fear, or a combination of these. It as if the event, which may have occurred over a few moments of time, lingers and surrounds me. My own version of Pig Pen and his cloud of dust.

I will then wonder why the event has affected me so much and I can’t seem to move past it. Obviously, nothing can move past me if I refuse to let it go.

I have always loved the phrase “this too shall pass”, and only now realize how much I have misunderstood these words. In regards to “this too shall pass” my contribution is not passivity, as I used to think as I awaited the glorious, anticipated “moving on” or “passing”. Rather my role is one of conscious action and attention to releasing anything I hold in relation to the event.

Life, in anything, is about motion. When I cling too tightly, stagnation is the only result. The natural order of life is to move, to pass, and to allow the past its place, so the future may emerge- free of holding.