A Mother’s Connection
In your growth
I touch the gaps-
Who I was to
who you were –
A momentary lapse-
until blessed am I,
I find you again.
This is written in regards to what it is to parent.
My stepson is growing and changing a lot. He is not the same boy he was 4 months ago. And sometimes, I find a brief moment exists before I see him as he truly is now.
It is almost a conscious thought- of –
“oh, I see how you are behaving. This means something totally different now, doesn’t it?
Your needs, your thoughts, your being have all undergone a substantial change, and lucky me, I get to witness it.
Yet, sometimes I need to run to catch up to who you have become.”
This moment is not a failure on my part or that of any parent.
In that moment, we simply are in the space of who we once were with the child who once was. And now, we become who we will be with the child who is emerging.
And in that time, we will be blessed with finding the child (and ourselves) again.