I was reading an interesting book the other day on feelings and it got me thinking about core feelings and how we can cover up and deny our core feelings.
What prompted this thought was a conversation with my husband. I was going on and on with quite a bit of intensity. I could feel myself trying to make the situation “BIGGER” to get his engagement.
Now, I understand this act differently.
I was taking an issue and ignoring my core feeling about it.
Basically, I was feeling lonely and “ignored” which I was using to cover up my feelings that I was not worth someone’s time and attention.
Rather than addressing what was really driving my behaviors and thoughts (“I am not worthy of attention”) and working with these thoughts lovingly. Instead, I spun a bigger and bigger story about being ignored.
I realize we tend to AMPLIFY because we are unwilling to RECTIFY what is really going on.
For myself, I will continue to enlarge situation in the vain attempt that if I just make it BIG enough my core issue will finally be addressed.
The core issue can not be addressed when I have made a smoke screen of “Go Big or Go Home” type of thinking of some side topic.
When you AMPLIFY, you can not RECTIFY.
The image is of a bird flying forward or backward – it can’t tell which. That is what happens when you AMPLIFY- you lose your direction.