How much are you willing to suffer because you decide not to believe in your reality?
Equilibrium can not be mastered if your beliefs run counter to your reality.
In reality, you are a beautiful, divine, phenomenal person.
In your belief about yourself, you may be anything but these.
And this discord between who your really are and who you believe yourself to be will set a life pattern of teeter-tottering.
Because you do not believe yourself to be worthy, you will act as someone who must work to earn worth.
Because you do not believe yourself to be loving, you will act as someone who must earn love.
Because you do not believe yourself to be a “good” person, you will act as someone who must prove his or her “good-ness”.
You will begin on one end of the teeter-totter, butt planted firmly on the ground because this, for the moment is what you believe.
But there is that other end, up in the sky and free, and you will think “That is where I need to be”.
And you will crawl across that plank and you will cross that center point and you will think you have it made, until that “free” end comes crashing down upon the ground by your weight.
You wanted to climb and be free, but you forgot to leave the weight of your beliefs behind.
It is not that you need to be on the free end of life, up in the sky. That is never the intent. What you are seeking is an end to the teeter-tottering, the conflict between the reality of who you are and who you believe yourself to be.
You are a kind, loving, good, wonderful, beautiful, amazing, engaging, warm, full, sincere, divinely-inspired person.
This is your reality. May your beliefs no longer be in conflict with this reality.
This is written for those, like me, who have found themselves swinging up and down on the teeter-totter of self-defeating beliefs.
We have been seeking peace and perhaps forgotten, as I did, that with such damning, grounding beliefs, I would never find the equilibrium I was seeking.
I hope you find your balance, that sweet point between your divine beauty (your true reality) and who you believe yourself to be.