I am working on a book about narcissism. Why?
Because I want to.
And really every answer about what you create and why you create it comes down to a similar answer- because you want to.
No one is telling you to do it. No one is forcing you to do it. You can place other criteria upon your self- but at the end of the day
you create for only one reason-
you want to.
Now the reason behind the want may vary- you may want to heal yourself, you may feel you have something to share to help others, you may want to educate others, you may want to provide an opportunity for others to laugh and so on—
but these are again “wants”; they are not “needs”.
This is the beauty of creativity- it is not life and death and that is why it is so giving and so free.
Creativity is found in the choice.
So, if I am honest with you – as I begin to put together a book on narcissism, my internal critic cringes.
It wants a better explanation than “I want to”.
My internal critic worries that to follow my first book, a book about heart and loving yourself, with a book on narcissism is incongruent in the worst sense. It tells me I shouldn’t do it, no one will like it. The book will not be positive and so on.
But the brutal honesty is that I am writing it because I want to. And those simple words free me.
I want to organize the material I have and I am not done, yet, telling the story I want to tell.
Writing is my way of making sense of how love and abuse can coalesce in some situations, and for me, words across the pages helps me separate the two.
I dissect the experiences with literary tweezers, trying to pull the strands apart so I may begin to understand.
I have had some regular followers of this blog comment that I should not write about narcissism or narcissistic people any more (as if I am giving narcissists my time and attention and should not be).
I am well aware my blog is not the tightest as far as focus and aligned-content on one topic. But does it matter?
No, because I am creating what I want.
And I hope your answer as to why you write what you do would be just as beautiful and simple- because you want to.